26 July, 2011

The Evil Stories. And The Disorder. And The Bad Title.


Realization strikes.
All the stories that I have been coming up in recent times have been evil which have evil men and women plotting up evil, dark ways to inflict pain or people dying and breaking people's hearts. 

I was reading through a couple of them and I wondered where that happy person inside of me has gone away to. I'm not one of those chicks who revel in gore. O.k maybe I do enjoy minimal amounts of it, now and again, but as a rule, people around me think of me as an air-head in love, hardly the Revenge-Desertion type. So I have promised myself that the next story I write, whenever I do, will me complete mush - true to my image. Anybody wanting to get the hell out can do so right now, don't say I didn't warn you xD

Another thing. When I write or read, fiction especially, I feel every bit of the action inside of me - be it pain or happiness or desperation or love or... erm.. you get the point. And when I'm done, I feel drained. This makes dealing with the darker emotions difficult because the feelings get carried over, making me grumpy and snapping everyone's head off. 
I'm making this particular bit of weirdness public because I want to know if I'm the only weirdo with the hyper-intensive feel-ology or maybe there are other, more normal beings, who will confirm that my marbles are indeed intact. Anyone? 

One more. Does anybody else enjoy eating a paste made out of chocolate drink powder and a wee bit of water? 

P.S: I need a new playlist. English and Hindi. Show me some good music, peeples.

27 comments:

  1. cant help in the playlist .. rather I would say when you get some do let me also know my playlist is at least a year old .. and i am getting sick and tired of listening to the same songs ..

    and you are fine dont worry too much :)
    Bikram's

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  2. being evil isn't a crime, it's just a part of bigger us :)

    Weakest LINK

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  3. Hahh u are fine! I am sooooo much worse and i cnt write mush at all!
    I suggested a playlist in eng to Niacharms but will give u too. Dunno wht kind u like.
    1-Deadmau5- raise your weapon (Madeon remix)
    2-Jar of Hearts- Cristina Perry
    3- if i die young- Band Perry
    4- Demi Lovato- Sky scrapper(lyrics r good
    5- Adele- Cold shoulder, Rolling in the deep (u wud hv heard then already
    6-Picture- Sheryl crow nd a guy whos name i forgot (old song but i looooooooooove it.
    Well i dunno wht type u want
    so check the 6 out.

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  4. I am at the other end-i write mush and I wish I could write more seriously!

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  5. Nope.. you are not the only one.. I feel the same way but only with books not movies.. There was this one series of 4 books which i read, and spent the next one week torturing myself and going through the same pain and grief that the female in the book had gone through.. i even started writing blog posts which were sad and painful and grief-y!!
    I cant confirm whether ur marbles are intact but i can say you have company! ;)
    BTW waiting for the mushy stories...

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  6. oh shit!! you too feel like that?? i start with this kind of feeling ever since the plot gets into my head...and till the time i finish writing....phew!! yay yay...same boat....! while writing mushy stuff...was fine...but while writing wicked stuff...i would be surprised i could be soooo evil!! but i guess its all in head....

    oh by the way...yes i looouuuvvvvvvvv making chocolate powder with little water...paste kinda....oh! and when are you coming to pondi? for chocolates of course! :)

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  7. I so agree. I get so immersed in fiction that I lose myself. I remember crying for days when Godfather died :(

    And yes you are fine, else something is wrong with me too :)

    Cheers!

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  8. I always connect more with books than with movies. I've cried, I've laughed, I've got turned on (wasn't this the part you erm-ed? :P), I've even hugged a book I've loved after I was done with it. Dreamed about it too. SO no, you're not a whacko. :) And if writing about eveil and all that is what comes naturally to you, then do that. It's not like you're going to go and actually kill somebody in real life once you write the story, right? Ligh lo. :)

    Playlist, currently I'm hooked to Love Sex aur Dhoka's title track all ver again. just love that song, and I can't hold it any longer, from the same movie. If you've never heard Coming back to life by Pink Floyd, please do. You'll thank me later. :)

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  9. I just love licking a spoon of chocolate powder mixed with a little water. so yummy!! :) same pinch!!

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  10. I so relate to this post. But I agree with Red I can't write mush. :P Actually I suck at it. :P My sister calls me the queen of darkness :P People are usually going down in my stories :P
    Looking forward to your happy mush post :D

    P.s I will suggest sad songs cause I like them :P So i am refraining from making the heavy heart worse :p

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  11. Okay, well, if the story is good, and if the emotions are conveyed, I too can feel the emotions. But they generally do not cross over to my other moods. It is like out of sight out of mind.

    And yes, a little gore is okay, too much gore after long intervals can also be a good read, but the same is the case with too much mush.
    So, keep it real, imaginable, I mean. The reel plays in the mind as the eyes read the script.

    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  12. i read you need a playlist update and then everything i was going to say about the post just wiped off my mind!
    here are few songs you might like

    Nicki Minaj - Superbass
    Angus & Julia Stone - Big Jet Plane
    Hayley Taylor - No More Wishing
    alexz johnson - time to be your 21
    Brutal Hearts (Ft Coeur de Pirate) .. (youtube this one)
    glee cast - somewhere only we know . (I totally absolutely crazily love Blaine!)
    Wilco - I'll Fight

    You might have heard some, not sure..
    lemme know if you like :)

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  13. @ Bikramjit, check out the songs below if you want a majorly girly playlist:D And I get the distinct feeling that you are trying not to complain about random complainings :P

    @ Rachit, now, that's a different perspective :P

    @ Red Handed, that's ok :) Mush is what people shrug away from unless they are true mush fans :D But funny has a universal audience. And I listen to everything except hard rock and metal. I have gotten all of them, already have a couple, will give them a listen tonight. And thanks for saving me from playlist-recurring-nightmare :D

    @ confusedyuppie, that's good actually. You stick to one genre you are awesome at and you'll never go wrong. Plus mush always has a feel-good factor:)

    @ Chandana, oh thank God, so I'm not mental:P Or maybe we BOTH are mental but atleast I have company xP

    @ HijiBijBij, ah, I so get it, it's like I'm another person when I write evil stories, SO evil they are :D
    Yay, hi5 on THAT one..
    And say the word, I was waiting for an invi :D

    @ Soumya, OMG don't remind me :| Don Corleone and his damn sons just about broke my heart.

    @ Spaceman Spiff, teehee, you guessed right:P that's the thing, I feel like I just might, with all the evil ideas playing out in my head.
    Downloaded both, thanks:)

    @ Anju S. Kumar, Aaaaah, bliss, that:D Why do we ever need normal food na.

    @ Srinidhi, :D LOL, people are usually going down, eh, I like.
    P.s: Thanks:P Or maybe do go ahead, I'll reserve it for times when I want to smack somebody and cry.

    @ Blasphemous Aesthete, why do I feel like cheering at your comment:) It just about sums up the essence of fiction-writing.

    @ Defiant Princess, I've got ONE of those and I love, the Glee cast one <3 The rest I have downloaded, and I know I'll like them 'coz I always love the music monday songs:)

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  14. Oh, believe me Priyanka, I actually shed tears while writing posts too - like the Bon Voyage one and a letter to God...and A father-daughter story. :P Someone who would be watching me would think I am in depression - And Books :| Do not ask - You are not alone :D :D :D

    And I am "waiting" for the mush posts, yes I am. See what you have done to me. Obsessed I am :P :D

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  15. All emotions part and parcel of life:) bringing out the negative emotions is a real tough task that drains out the real you- very true! May be i too am a mushy mushy one...sniff***sniff***:)

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  16. Dear Priyanka

    On the occasion of nothing particularly, i invite you to visit pondicherry the only indian french connection for a few days to check out a few things that would be of your interest.
    1. chocolates
    2. Beautiful Seaside evenings
    3. the french colony
    4. some french shopping
    Please accept my invitation to you to visit Pondicherry ASAP!
    :)

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  17. Being mushy mush ain't no bad. It is something that lies inside, all we need to do is to discover it. And I feel every word you write, too :)

    And my playlist for you:
    It is what it is: Lifehouse
    If Everyone cared: Nickelback
    All I need: Within Temptation
    Here Comes the rain again: Annie Lennox
    Only one: Alex Band
    Come Back when you can: Barcelona
    Angel: Judas Priest
    Crush: David Archuleta
    I'll be there for you: Bon Jovi

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  18. I do get worked up when i read thrillers, and all the evil stuff, i sometimes dream about it too.. but then a good book does that :) If you read a light novel, it makes you feel so too :) Its temporary phase :) Songs well listen to Khaboon ke parinday its a nice hindi song :) And lastly i love the chocolate paste too ;)

    Cheers,

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  19. You know..you're basically mush (yeah, you, I'm not talking about the generalized 'you') - and u just gushed a whole lotta chocolate sauce out here.

    Take care, girl - all's well.

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  20. @ MSM, :) yay, so I'm not drama-queen, at all. And the mush is coming soon :P

    @ Cloud Nine, awww, mush is always a good thing in moderate doses.

    @ HijiBijBij, AWWW, aren't you the sweetest <3 :)) I'm definitely coming down soon, at least for the sake of that very sweet invitation.

    @ Risha Kalra, :) so that's a good thing. And I'm not evil *sighs in relief.

    I have heard a couple of those, the rest are downloading as we speaketh. Thank you:)

    @ Tanvi, so glad that I have LOTS and lots of company on both counts:) And shall definitely try the song.

    @ phatichar, a whole lotta chocolate sauce?:P I should be happy considering that was the whole point.
    But did you just call me an air-head? ;P
    Super story, btw.. Bravo.

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  21. Awww..no way - I called you an ice-cream cone (seemingly thick out, full of mush in) - get it? :P

    Thanks - that story could've been much much better, if not for (u know what)

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  22. U want music inspiration.. this guy RoXXX... He is the mai-Baap of 'tholi katti':

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-25ld341m8Q

    I still dont knw wht hit me!!!

    :)

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  23. @ Phatichar, ah, ice-cream cone..how sweet:) thanks. Ah, no worries, it was still brilliant..

    @ Raj, I made the mistake of checking the link out. And my eyes and ears started bleeding. Yet again-_-
    If you ever, EVER, find a way to contact him, please do let me know.

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  24. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uopk8hoJyg8

    For all the mush to gush out!! :D

    I havnt gotten over this yet, and its bin a week:)

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  25. U want music inspiration.. this guy RoXXX... He is the mai-Baap of 'tholi katti':

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-25ld341m8Q

    I still dont knw wht hit me!!!

    :)

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  26. Okay, well, if the story is good, and if the emotions are conveyed, I too can feel the emotions. But they generally do not cross over to my other moods. It is like out of sight out of mind.

    And yes, a little gore is okay, too much gore after long intervals can also be a good read, but the same is the case with too much mush.
    So, keep it real, imaginable, I mean. The reel plays in the mind as the eyes read the script.

    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  27. Nope.. you are not the only one.. I feel the same way but only with books not movies.. There was this one series of 4 books which i read, and spent the next one week torturing myself and going through the same pain and grief that the female in the book had gone through.. i even started writing blog posts which were sad and painful and grief-y!!
    I cant confirm whether ur marbles are intact but i can say you have company! ;)
    BTW waiting for the mushy stories...

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