22 August, 2013

Iris


I lay crying for a long time. A long, long time. For the first time in years, I felt like a failure. His shirt was drenched through and yet my tears didn’t cease.

And he spoke not a word.

Amidst my gut-wrenching sobs, I wished he wouldn’t give me any space now, I wished he would do something to cheer me up, to say that I am wrong to think such things, that I ain’t no failure.

But he spoke not a word.

His comforting presence and the aroma of his woody soap reminded me of all that I had, all that I am. I finally found solace in the fact that even if I had nothing else, I had him. I might be a failure but for now I had him.
And that made up for a lot of things. 

He still spoke not a word.

My sniffles died down and I cracked a reluctant smile... I’d always been this mercurial in my moods swings. One good cry and I could always put it behind and try to get back on the figurative horse. The darkness ebbed as I found courage in the flimsiness of the proof that showed I was a failure.

He finally pulled my face to his and forced me to look at him.
Fresh tears threatened to brim out at the weight of his unrelenting, almost harsh, gaze when he firmly said…

“That is enough. You’re perfect. And you’re mine.”

The problems weren’t solved, the darkness still remained, I was still afraid of the ghosts that haunted me but I knew I was not alone. That someone had faith in me.

“When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am”

Lucky are those who have someone that has such unshakeable faith in you, especially in those moments when you doubt yourself. 


P.S: Fiction after a long, long time. Not perfect, not even close. But I’m glad I tried.
What can I say, the Goo Goo Dolls are inspirational.


18 comments:

  1. It HAS to be luck. I have no other explanation as to why I have had such a patient person by my side, who puts up with all my naatak, all these years!

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  2. So I was thinking of stalking you until I find out what makes you right such nice stuff :) :).. Is it the food you eat ? the friends ? your house ? chocolates ? its the chocolates, is it the chocolates ? it must be something chocolaty :), is it ?
    Nice post :) :)

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    1. Hahaha :D Must be the chocolates :P Thank you so much..

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  3. Oh God bless my husband. Its enough that he has to put up with me, and then he's so supportive that I thank God everyday for giving me the perfect soulmate. I'm glad He made up for all the 25 years of crap I put up with by giving me Cal :)

    Just wait, someone is on the way for you too :)

    Goo goo dolls \m/

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  4. wow♥ what a touching well written story! You're really talented and you have so rich vocabulary! lovely blog! :) I followed you on bloglovin and I liked your facebook page with my personal account(petra lorencov√°);) kisses!

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  5. "Lucky are those who have someone that has such unshakeable faith in you, especially in those moments when you doubt yourself."

    Seriously, I think such people are really really really hard to find and if you find one, you should keep that person for the rest of your life. I hope you get that person. :)

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    1. Thanks, I hope every one does :) They reinstate your faith in everything..

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  6. I don't know why, but I had tears in my eyes - Iris always makes me wish and unwish so many things, PeeVee! Love it. And *Touchwood* :D

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    1. Yep... Has that effect on me as well :) 'wish and unwish' is such a beautiful term <3

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  7. It is always such a pleasure to read your fluid, rich fiction pieces.

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    1. Thank you Miss Fancypants Fashion Blogger who is world famous now :):)

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  8. Lucky are those who have someone that has such unshakeable faith in you, especially in those moments when you doubt yourself.

    i hate to spoil the flow of it, especially after you have put it across so so well, but one could always be their own someone no? and no i am not talking about love. i am just talking about the someone who bears the unshakeable faith.

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    1. Where the hell did my comment go :O

      Anyway, I was just saying that while we could be strong enough to withstand a lot of things in life, I think it is important to have someone who will sometimes reiterate that faith that you have in your own strength. Because, at the end of the day, we are social beings and we can't really live in complete self-sufficiency, can we?

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